|I tear up my flesh to see if this is real...
||[May. 31st, 2004|06:05 pm]
Lost now Found
|||||Dashboard Confessional - Bitter Pill||]|
I just finished cutting...
I was never a cutter before. I just started about a year ago. When I do it, it's like everything else will go away. I cut in to my skin to see if I still blees, to know that I still feel. As soon as I cut the tears are gone. Watching the blood drip off my arm is such a painful yet calming feeling. It stings now and I still feel depressed but the tears have stopped... I'd rather have this numb,blank stinging than be crying. I don't want my cutting to get out of hand and usually it only happens every so often. But I'm worried because with summer all I have is time to think and that's what kills me. I just need distractions